Thank you for sharing your hearts with me through your comments and email. Some of the hurts you have been through and are going through just break my heart. Please know that the Lord sees where you are in this right now. He sees your tears and knows your pain.
I want you to know that I realize how hard it is to open up about this and I'm praying for you. I hope that your story can help someone else and that God will be glorified in your life and marriage.
The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
Though it may feel like the loneliest battle of your life, you're not alone in it. He is close to you, even now.
I want to offer you hope, because no matter how bad a situation looks, there is nothing impossible with God.
For nothing is impossible with God.
God is in the restoration business, it's what He's best at.
Bringing life to something that is dead, such as a hardened-broken heart.
Resurrecting something that seemed to be gone forever.
You may feel like you could never trust again. Like a part of your marriage died and is gone forever. Not true with God. He is a God of resurrection. Bringing life to that which was dead.
He's our living hope. He can bring re-birth to your heart and to your marriage.
1 Peter 1:3-7
Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! In his great mercy he has given us new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead,
4 and into an inheritance that can never perish, spoil or fade-kept in heaven for you,
5 who through faith are shielded by God's power until the coming of the salvation that is ready to be revealed in the last time.
6 In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials.
7 These have come so that your faith-of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire-may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed.
Here are some links to help you in this specific trial you are going through.
Discovering Pornography or Infidelity
A Checklist for Confronting Your Spouse
Confronting Your Spouses Secret Sin
Here are a list of books that you all suggested have helped you:
~For Her: Living with Your Husband's Secret Wars by Marsha Means
~For Him: Breaking Free by Russell Willingham
~I Surrender All: Rebuilding A Marriage Broken By Pornography” by Clay and Renee Crosse
And a free online book:
~Free book by Mark Driscoll The Porn Again Christian
Ladies, there is hope, and it's found in nothing and no one else but God.
My heart goes out to those of you that have been wounded by this. I am praying for your heart and marriage to be healed.
(The February drawing will be tomorrow.)